Undivided attention

Lately I've been trying to find time to hang out and give my time to as many as I can before I leave. And just the other day I was hanging out with a friend.. when we were hanging out I noticed the person's attention was not there at all, it was somewhere else. My friend was distracted with texting n I don't know what else and ofcoz I'm human. I got offended because I had little time and here I was trying to love on as much as I could but it didn't matter..in my mind I'm like this is so disrespectful, so rude.. why oh why do I do this to myself. Then later that day I was humbled, I'm not justifying what was going on but later that night I was reminded 'Jesus wept' He weeps when I give Him undivided attention. How crazy was it that during bible study we talked about 'idols' or distractions ..and how they can keep our eyes from the 'one thing' God.

Oh every part of me was offended with me not getting the attention and I felt like I wasted my time but more so I learned a lesson and was humbled and was reminded and almost was made to feel how God feels when my eyes are set on other things. And yet He is so compasionate and so gracious, so merciful that when I go away or my eyes get caught up with the things that's not God he is so merciful and give's me a clean slate.

My mind could not get around the whole thing of focusing on 'God'. I was reminded how when one has a crush on someone..that's all you think about, that is what becomes your focus. And oh how I've failed so many time's but Jesus oh gosh He's grace, mercy, love is unending He gives us a clean slate when we fall short. I woke up early and I'm thankful for yet another day..that I get to chose to love the Lord my God with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my strength. And to remember He sent the Holy spirit to be our helper. And I'm thankful for another chance to get to pursue my Lord, and love Him with all my heart. It's hard especially when life gets on the way but it's not impossible. I'm choosing to be more careful on what I set my eyes on, how I take my step and my prayer is that the Lord will help me take every step with purpose pursuing Him and Him alone.

David possessed a yearning and a longing for God-it was something that motivated and moved his inner man. He said, I long for this one! This desire is so alive in me, I am willing to give up pursuits and pleasures of this life, with the understanding that I will encounter this one. Though I'm slandered, I don't care. I want God! something has touched my inner man, and it has awakened hunger. And not even kingship will satisfy this hunger. The only thing that will satisfy me is to touch the depths of the Creator. One thing I desire. One thing I long for-my God. I believe we like David can touch the heart of God.

I'm drawn to ask myself...

what's my purpose?

what's my desire?

where is my heart?

where is my attention?

oh the word says clearly seek first the kingdom of God.

When the Lord looks at my heart, what does He see? He looks at the inside and with my thoughts, attitudes, motives,Where are they found?, where is my heart found?

Oh I know the Lord is asking for my undivided attention. A hunger has been birthed in my heart that just won't go away. Better is one day in his courts than a thousand elsewhere. my prayer is for eyes to be opened and complacent hearts to be revived as wholehearted lovers of Jesus.

"One thing I have desired, and that will I seek,"-psalm 27:4

May I be found faithful, my Your eyes Lord find this heart loyal to You. May I be found with a heart after YOU. Oh God help me this I pray

I really rullyyyy ♥ u God